I had a hard time accepting my homosexuality. I married a woman twenty years ago. At the time I thought I was bisexual, although she didn’t know it. But over the past 5 years or so, I’ve come to realize that I’m a homosexual. I only masturbate to men, my only fantasies are men, even when I have sex with my wife. I started watching gay porn a few years ago and I had never been so turned on. I also sucked a few cocks in college, but I thought I was just experimenting. But it wasn’t. I loved sucking cock. Homosexuality wasn’t as accepted at the time(late 80’s). During college, I did have several girl friends that questioned my sexuality. I would always pretend to get offended. In reality I was relieved that they might know. I even had a friend that told me “ I know you’re gay.” I asked her how she knew. She said there’s something about the way you act when hot guys are around!! Finally in my late 40’s I began to accept the cock lover I am. I have embraced my love for the masculine! As of now, my wife still doesn’t know, but I think she suspects. I’m hoping to soon open up to her.

Shane

It took me a long time to accept my homosexuality but eventually I did in my late twenties. Before that I tried to persuade myself that I’m straight and I had girlfriends but then I realised that I can’t even have sex with them as I can’t get an erection. Then I started to date guys and here I am a cock sucker who can’t think of anything else but gay sex.

Steve

4 thoughts on “The Cock Lover I Am

  1. To Shane above:
    Looks like you are describing me. You are a my mirror image.
    If you ever want to discuss in private emails let me know and I would be happy to talk to someone exactly like me
    Cheers
    Charles

    1. Hi Charles! I’d love to chat privately with you. I love meeting and chatting with other men in my situation. Let me know how to contact you.
      Shane

  2. It took me a long time to accept my homosexuality but eventually I did in my late twenties. Before that I tried to persuade myself that I’m straight and I had girlfriends but then I realised that I can’t even have sex with them as I can’t get an erection. Then I started to date guys and here I am a cock sucker who can’t think of anything else but gay sex. 😉

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