I don’t have the right answers to everything. But I do have honest answers. In the relatively short while I’ve frequented this site, I have come to the same realizations as you describe here. This space, this shrine of masculinity has become among my top inspirations as a writer and an artist. Instead of mindless wanking, I have instead started to do more or less ritual masturbation, and when with another man, ritual sex.
One of these days I would love to come to London to visit you, if only to have a chat and a pint. And then if you would allow me, maybe I would also celebrate all that is you. Because you deserve to be celebrated.
Will probably never happen, but it’s thought that counts.
your brother Ben.